Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Hopeless hope

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away
-dashboard confessional (vindicated)

HOPE.. another 4 letter word.. or is it?
"Let me tell you something friend--hope is a dangerous thing. Hope can drive a man insane." famously quoted by Red in shawshank redemption.
I was just following the wiki page for hope. "Hopefulness is different from optimism. Hope is an emotional state, whereas optimism is a conclusion reached through a deliberate thought pattern that leads to a positive attitude."
Hope is different form positive thinking,which refers to a systematic process to reverse the pessimism.
Strange.. i thought hope would be glorified in all schools of thoughts and religions..
In Greek mythology, when pandora opened the box, she let all the evils out except hope. hope is more potent than any of the major evils.
Friedrich Nietzsche argued that "In truth, it is the most evil of evils because it prolongs man's torment." (though its not entirely in the context). "The miserable have no other medicine But only hope."
As per the study in University of michigan, obstacle to emotional recovery is hope.. the belief that current hardship is temporary.

so Hope is so bad..?
its like dreaming .. is dreaming useless..?
err.. dreaming is making the castles in air, one just needs to wake up and dig foundations for it.
but u need to wake up..
what about hope.. it should be backed by action to fulfill it, but most of the times.. hope is about something to happen.. Its passive..
because if its active.. i think it can be comparatively easier to translate into action.. and self belief. confidence.

so what is this hope for..
>> Dude? Dont tell me u still hoping??
>> For what??? move on accept the facts, logics, be practical
but then..
glory comes to those who defies the facts and logics ... hm?

some very good videos, all at one place.. though still very few

its all about inches...

"Life is a game of inches. So is football. In either game the margin of error is small. One half a step too late or too early and you don't quite make it.
But the inches we need are everywhere around us. In every minute of our lives. We have to go for every inch. Because we know that when we add up those inches, that will make the difference between winning and losing. "...
-any given sunday (al pachino)

I was getting freaked out by the predictable and normal life i was having in recent times... and here it comes, what they say? ya.. lull before the storm.. so much happening around that i m missing that comfort of normal-routine life.
all gears have been thrown off.. and its those times when anything can happen, and one needs to take them all along the stride. and keep moving forward.

may be somewhere i guess that freaking out was sense of anticipation of coming things..
lesson learned-> next time there is a lull in life, use the time to strengthen oneself mentally, physically, emotionally, ... even socially, financially.

was playing klueless4 all nite. stuck at level18.. sigh
started playing chess again..
got invitation for a re- course of aol. err... have still nt given a thought.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

sunrises, expressing and web

I see skies of blue, clouds of white
Bright blessed days, dark sacred nights
And I think to myself...
what a wonderful world!

woke up early to see the sunrise, blue sky and feel the fresh air.
was watchin this tv advertisement of ING.. "mere desh main paisa sirf paisa nahi hai.."
(in my nation, money is not just money..) loved the theme, loved the concept, amazing story and music
i guess it's RDY&R work (Rediffusion DY&R) , somehow whenever i visit their website, i always end up going to case studies and reading again and again about the airtel (express yourself) campain.
say yes
say no
say something
say nothing
speak up
speak out
Be heard... express yourself

website pick of the day:
talks by speakers around the world over various topics.. inspiring, thoughtful. TED conference is held on Long Beach, running for 4 days, with speaker having 18minute time slot. videos downloadable from the site.

Monday, December 15, 2008

the pot?

dolphin: tell me a bed time storyyyyy..!
me: fiction/non fiction..?
dolphin: non fiction!!! word limit 120 words...

ok, here it goes...
This story is about a dreamy boy, who had hard time moving in and out from imaginary world and real world and blooop.. suddenly he realised either no one has this issue or everyone is very comfortable in this dilemma.
Chasing after the dreams, that belonged to real world, he kept aside the dreams of his imaginary world..
ehhh...its like chasing the pot under the rainbow, but then why is everyone running for it...
the fairy godmother then smiled and told him...
enjoi the rainbow why are u worried about pot and others

Saturday, December 13, 2008

khwab ho tum ya?

Most of the times, i have a dreamless sleep. its quiet, its serene, ( and its addictive.. !)

no matter what the noise levels are let it be all music, tv, friends chatting, all lights on, marriage in neighbourhood..
(err there is a marriage hall in the neighbourhood in homeplace.. so someone is always marrying someone else. it seriously killed the charm of going to marriage parties.. ajji har hafte pados mein hoti hai)

it just never mattered...

honest confession:
only one thing irks me off ... the wall clocks tick tock... in the dead silent background
its irritating to such an extent .. that when i visit home now.. first thing i do is to take off the batteries from the clock in my room.. and then look where is the bed..

and once in a while.. some dream will be thrown in by lord morpheus, and i would be amused in the morning what the heck happened in there///trying a futile attempt to interpret them..

but they are getting too frequent now, i woke up one morning and mailed my friend if everything is allright at that end... and later knocked my head 'making a fool of myself' and laughed it away...

few days later, it happened again, and after waking up, i logged into messenger and asked other friend, 'oye..! everything ok with u'? ..
and back to senses, damn.. again??

somehow. suddenly i am having dreams and i get worried about my friends, i am wondering where are those priceless dreamless sleeps!

and this morning i dreamt something and in between i woke up to gulp water, thought what was i dreaming, realised it was a good idea/concept/story/thought i would better write it down..

and when i fully woke up in morning, bluup... it was gone.. something i thought/saw/dreamt and i don't know it now.

Don't know if this dreaming and forgetting is worse or dreaming and then remembering or not dreaming at all..
but how are u supposed to follow dreams when u keep forgetting them!!